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Thursday, July 25, 2013

Yes and No

I'm thrilled to say that the second round of 100mg clomid and 10,000 units of hcg made me ovulate but I didn't get pregnant.  What sucks is that I didn't call in to my doctor soon enough, so we have to skip a cycle since I'll be almost half way through the new cycle before I can get in to discuss the next round.

I think he'll increase the clomid to 150mg because it took 8 days after the hcg shot for me to ovulate.  I'm also going to ask him for prescription progesterone to use on the next cycle post-ovulation because my post-o temps were on the low side, making me believe that my progesterone level was low.

I have about 2 weeks until I start the my progesterone cream regimen to begin the next cycle.  I was skeptical that I even ovulated this cycle because of my post-o temps but AF arriving proved that I had.  I'm hopeful that next cycle this will work.  I've also had my thyroid meds increased because my levels were up again. I'm hoping when I go in for my follow-up I'll be able to convince my doctor to put me on Armour or Natur-throid instead of synthetic levothyroxine.

Hopefully next cycle will be successful for us.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

The Excitement Has Worn Off

So, it's been almost 6 days since I got my HCG trigger shot.  So far there's been no thermal shift.  I'm trying not to be pessimistic, after all it really hasn't been that long.  I'm giving the shot 12-14 days to work and if it doesn't then, I get to go back to the ob/gyn for the final round.

It's a little upsetting to think that this dosage might not work.  I don't want to think about having to go on to 150mg of clomid for 5 days and the same strength trigger as this time.  I really wanted this shot to work, even if I didn't get pregnant on it.  At least then we'll know the right dosages for everything.

I was so excited when we found out that this ob/gyn was going to help us get pregnant but now my biggest fear is that we'll have to do the fertility specialist after this.  I know I'm not healthy enough to do IVF or even get a fertility specialist to agree to help us.  I keep telling DH that if I can't have children, then I'm not going to continue being overweight.  I'm tired of getting my hopes up. 

For the first time in forever, I'm feeling resigned to the fact that we may not be able to have children of our own.  It hurts me inside to know that this may very well be true.  I'm still praying this works but my hopes aren't as high as they were.