So, it's been almost 6 days since I got my HCG trigger shot. So far there's been no thermal shift. I'm trying not to be pessimistic, after all it really hasn't been that long. I'm giving the shot 12-14 days to work and if it doesn't then, I get to go back to the ob/gyn for the final round.
It's a little upsetting to think that this dosage might not work. I don't want to think about having to go on to 150mg of clomid for 5 days and the same strength trigger as this time. I really wanted this shot to work, even if I didn't get pregnant on it. At least then we'll know the right dosages for everything.
I was so excited when we found out that this ob/gyn was going to help us get pregnant but now my biggest fear is that we'll have to do the fertility specialist after this. I know I'm not healthy enough to do IVF or even get a fertility specialist to agree to help us. I keep telling DH that if I can't have children, then I'm not going to continue being overweight. I'm tired of getting my hopes up.
For the first time in forever, I'm feeling resigned to the fact that we may not be able to have children of our own. It hurts me inside to know that this may very well be true. I'm still praying this works but my hopes aren't as high as they were.
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